The Big LC.....

Sometimes I think to myself what is the point in school any more? Why bother? Sure I know it all already. I'm so very naive and young when these thoughts breach my wisdom and come to surface in my mind.

I've learned a lot over the past week > a cliche, I'm well aware but so very true none the less. These mock exams have really awakened me to the reality that is the Leaving Cert. They've shown me how much I actually don't know. They've managed to serve their purpose in scaring the bajaysus out of me - and they're not even over yet!

I was under the impression that the big LC would be an absolute doddle, that I could pass it no problem.....I'm beginning to doubt that now. I've seen the light as they say. This is going to be a difficult few months ahead until June. I'm going to have to work my ass off to get the points I need for the Event Management Course in DIT.

I really want to do this course and I can't imagine doing anything else. The guidance councillor asked me recently about my other options on the CAO after Event Management. I looked at him with a look that said, What other options? I have to get this course.

My stress levels I think hit the maximum the other day when my very supporting and loving mother decided to inform me that the points are sure to sky-rocket this year because of the current economic downturn. The conditions in the economy at present are influencing thousands more mature students to apply via the CAO for places in Universities and colleges for this coming September. SO the good news is that I'm not only competing against the so many thousands of Leaving Cert students in the country, but now I get to compete with a load of old people too. Just fecking fantastic.

This worries me immensely especially because my course only has an availability of forty places. Forty! If I'm now up against increased competition to compete for a course that is said to be extremely competitive already then the points are surely going to shoot up. I can't imagine not getting this. It hurts to think about it.

I envy people who already applied for a PLC course and are already aware of their confirmed places in college - Yes, that is you Jade. These said people are doing the leaving cert "for the laugh" while people like me are doing it for our "life".

I've only now realised how vital this exam is to my future career and to my future happiness.....