Missing Person Report

Name: Rebecca Dunwoody
Last seen: Late August 2009
Age at Time of Disappearance: 17 years old
Gender: Female
Birthday: November
Height: 5'6'
Hair: Short and Curly
Eyes: Blue and Grey
Race: Caucasian
Last seen Wearing: A stress-filled worried expression.


I feel like I've been missing since the beginning of 6th year. I feel like I've disappeared, I haven't been myself. I'm ready to come back again and to live once more.
I'm tired of just surviving, which is what I've been doing! I want to live!
I want to be me. I don't want to feel guilty every time I'm not sat down at a desk. I want to feel free. I'm counting down the days until June 23rd when I can finally be re-united with the missing person that I haven't seen since last summer.
I'm at the stage now that I don't care what I get out of this exam. I just want it to be over. I can decide what to do afterwards. I just want to be me again. I've missed me.

The saying.....

"Life's a Bitch and then you die".....suddenly comes to mind right now.

The Five Stages of Pre-Exam Breakdowns

1. Denial

Don't worry its fine - its all good, i can deal with it, it wont be to hard, no worries.

2. Anger

Are you fucking kidding me!! this is shit - i don't know any of this how do they expect us to remember this?? "hey mate, calm down" - don't you fucking tell me to calm down - you can fuck off.

3. Bargaining

Shit i wish i didn't have to do this - its all over, I'm going to fail. I would do anything to not have to do this, just one more day to study, anything to get out of this .

4. Depression

It's fucked, I'm fucked, its all over - Leaving Cert over, I'm never going to pass, just give up now and drop out.

5. Acceptance

Yes i finally acknowledge i am fucked - but nonetheless i will do this exam anyway and hopefully get through it somehow.




At the beginning of the week I was undoubtedly in Stage 2.....Although I appear to have somehow jumped forward into Stage 5 today...... I hope it stays this way :)